不知道是不是人品太差,最近真的有些倒霉.

前段时间电脑出问题,打开任何网页都是一片白茫茫,任务管理器打不开.去修,居然整出个硬盘问题.工作人员手脚麻利地拆卸,最后才问:"你电脑里没有什么重要的东西吧?"我这时才从脑子的空白处伸出阻拦的意识,可什么都没有了...我的电脑现在和刚出生的婴儿一样无忧无虑---我恨无忧无虑,连带讨厌起刚出生的婴儿...

又过两天,去买书,已经和书店的大老板约好了.书店,收营员眼皮都不抬:"你订的书已经卖了,你迟到了一天."好个规矩办事大义凛然.再打电话问大老板,那边是饭局的闹哄哄:"年前不进书了,去xx路xx书店看看."前几天的客气劲哪里去了?business is business,我算领教了.

前天,出门踩雪,没带钥匙,被冷风吹了个半小时;昨天,拿牛奶时逗弄邻居家小猫被抓;今天,吃烤鱼片居然被刺卡到喉咙...再加上尤文输给国米,教授发给我的邮件被莫名其妙删除,真不知道后面还有什么...

 

I don't wanna lose you,

but I don't wanna use you

just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't wanna hate you,

I don't wanna take you,

but I don't wanna be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter

to anyone anymore.

But like a fool I keep losing my place

and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

 

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know

it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people

don't stay where they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

 

Now, I could never change you,

I don't wanna blame you.

Baby, you don't have to take the fall.

Yes, I may have hurt you,

but I did not desert you.

Maybe I just wanna have it all.

 

It makes a sound like thunder,

it makes me feel like rain.

And like a fool who will never see the truth,

I keep thinking something's gonna change.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know

it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people

don't stay where they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

 

And there's no way home,

when it's late at night and you're all alone.

Are there things that you wanted to say?

do you feel me beside you in your bed,

there beside you, where I used to lay?

 

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.

There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love...

it just ain't enough...

几年没听的老歌,孙燕姿翻唱过.今天在音像店听到,毫不犹豫买下来.很好听~~

 

上个月读了<平凡的世界>和<萧伯纳论易卜生>,开始思索一些问题.上星期读<大学>和<弟子规>,当下又重读罗素的<西方哲学史>和贾德的<苏菲的世界>,思索着的问题渐行渐远,却也渐渐清晰执著起来.

烦劳一想,自己此时读书很有不自觉的规范:同时最少读两本,中西起码各一.进而发觉文化真是相互吸引又相互排斥的围城,要融于人的思想,再靠此人言辞来彰显.这人当然不能不宽容,否则就有文化上的偏激;也固不能太宽容,必会失去个性.又不能找文化外的人来搀和.试想,若让一南美生番来理清中西文化的犬牙交错,他必然惊讶于这世界竟然有如此不可见之壁垒,且不屑起来,想起印加文化和玛雅的金字塔,回头寻觅亚特兰第斯大陆的辉煌,是多么不智.

我是最近才想能生在中国的好,还有所处时代的妙.心下也颇以为只有中国人才能牵起东西文化的手.为何?

窃以为中国文化厚重在传统,一少年弱冠之前长在中国,从小便听<三字经><弟子规><围炉夜话><颜氏家训>,即使不亲自读,父辈祖辈也常提着耳朵念叨,相宜早成规矩方圆,且一辈子难得再变.此时的少年如同吃了几个饺子的胃,虽不甚饱,尚有余力去吃那些黄油面包,富足完满.而西方文化素来看中思考\智慧和经验,三者中惟有思考需从小培养,其余都有年龄的积累,然后去解那"人之所生,人之所生生"的问题,总也算中国"五十知天命"后的事情了.随想混说,难免有些武断了.

再说说最近的事.开始写大论文了,要把所有经济学方面的书重新翻阅一遍,想起来就有些可怕,然而心底还有极强烈的憧憬:毕竟是本专业的东西,应该花最大的精力去学习!!!

也在学英语,有明确的目标了,剩下就是把目标融化在一天天重复生活里的过程了.

最后祝朋友们天天开心!我真的很感激你们~这半年来,我实在太自私了些...

美是永生揽镜自照.

而你就是永生.

你也是那镜子.